I have had a major break from athletics and training infact I have come very close to retiring and hanging up the spikes for good and have been frequently asked what my plans are so let me explain........
As anyone within sport knows there does come a point in life where you think enough is enough now I just want to enjoy life, kick back and put the feet up!! These have been on my mind for a long time now and I had decided that I wanted to retire.
My daughter is 6 now and I have realised just how fast children grow up and how much I have missed and that I will never gain that back!! As you can imagine Mia herself is very sporty taking part in athletics herself which I coach and also showing signs of a good footballer. It shows she has my genes as I was just like that growing up, however I gave up football and followed the dream of becoming an international athlete! 
I have enjoyed being at home with her when she gets home from school and listening to her read and help with her homework. Also standing out in the cold watching her take part in sport and cheering her on and feeling proud like my parents had done for me over the years. I guess I was feeling very selfish that I wasn't giving Mia as much time as she needed and I didn't want her to turn to me one day and say you where never there for me mummy!!! As that would break my heart, I want to give Mia the best possible start to her own future and already she has the dream to be the next Jessica Ennis. I am sure that with the mind set she already has and what she has already seen myself go through it's not a dream for her she can make it a reality, I have a great training partner in her and she is out on runs with me!! 
I have never neglected Mia in anyway she has always come before anything in my life maybe it was just a thought process I was going through!!
After months of being lazy and enjoying being mum again I have had a lot of time to reflect and have missed being away from training and secretly the pain that comes with it. I have had no pressure put on me by anyone on what I am going to do, or my parents saying I am making a big mistake giving up and I think they did the best thing letting me be and giving me time and space. I have gone through a fight with my head and my heart about what I should do!!
So we have set a whole new challenge and plan for this year which will be revealed in time and I am back to full training that fits around me being there for Mia, when she is at football training I am in the court next door training myself. I know I can do it and can't wait to see how this year pans out as it's make or break and if it don't work out I can hang up my spikes with no regret :o)
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